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wThursday, February 27, 2003 | |
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Him [9:17 PM]: if i said i'm sorry for overreacting the other night, would you accept the apology? Me [9:18 PM]: i don't know. Him [9:19 PM]: well, think about it. i probably should have just let what you said go, but i was in kind of a touchy mood, i guess. Him [9:58 PM]: still mad, eh? Me [9:58 PM]: you're only going to apologize if i'll accept it? Him [9:59 PM]: no, i intended that as an apology, even if i did phrase it a bit too cutely. Me [10:00 PM]: I'm thinking. Me [10:01 PM]: I guess I don't have anything to say right now. Him [10:01 PM]: i saw the dig about ___ being my "maaaaaaaa," by the way...certainly didn't seem very necessary to me, but i'm in less of a mood to let things bother me than i was the other night. Me [10:02 PM]: I laughed. Him [10:02 PM]: at my joke, or at your dig? Me [10:02 PM]: my joke. Him [10:03 PM]: you know, it's not like there was absolutely no provocation for my getting mad at you the other night. Me [10:05 PM]: ok. a. i was already being short with you when you asked me a question before. b. if you thought it was something i was so pissed about, why did you bring it up in the first place? Him [10:06 PM]: i thought you might wonder why i was in a private room. what do you mean about being short with me when i asked you a question before? is that supposed to make everything seem better? Me [10:06 PM]: no Me [10:06 PM]: i'm allowed to be in a bad mood to. Me [10:07 PM]: you're acting very self-centered. Him [10:08 PM]: well, i understand you can be in a bad mood too...that's basically why i'm apologizing. i should have let it go, because it wasn't somethign that we couldn't have gotten around. i've let things go before and they didn't continue to bother me. this probably would have been the same way. so i shouldn't have overreacted so quickly. Me [10:09 PM]: well, thanks for acting like a perpetrating something terrible on you and then letting me think that for 3 days. Him [10:10 PM]: well, thank YOU for doing exactly the same thing. Me [10:12 PM]: good lord. you're 41 years old and you do that about everything. i AM sorry you felt that way, but i'm not always going to apoligze first. especially when i get told off, and accused of trying to keep you from being friends with your friends. Him [10:12 PM]: i do what about everything? Me [10:12 PM]: everything. Him [10:12 PM]: i do everything about everything? Me [10:13 PM]: someone sends you an im you don't like. something happens at work.... Him [10:13 PM]: and i do what? Me [10:13 PM]: i know what happens. i say i'm sorry for something i said hurting you, intentionally or not, you accept my apology and it ends there. Me [10:13 PM]: you always act like everything that happens is some terrible thing that someone has perpetrated on you. Him [10:14 PM]: i may complain do you. do i ever say something like "whoopdee doo" when you tell me something you're doing? am i ever that flatly rude for no reason? Him [10:15 PM]: i think there's a difference between complaining and being insulting. Me [10:15 PM]: no, you've never said that. Him [10:16 PM]: maybe we all get more offended by exactly the kinds of offenses we wouldn't commit ourselves, even if they aren't really such bad offenses. i don' t know. Me [10:16 PM]: you do tend to trivialize a lot of things i tell you. like i'm a child and you're an adult. i'd just as soon not tell. Him [10:17 PM]: well, i'm sorry--i really don't mean to do that. maybe sometimes i think i'm being funny but it doesn't come across that way, or being funny isn't a good enough reason. Me [10:17 PM]: ok. Him [10:17 PM]: i'll try not to do that from now on. Me [10:18 PM]: ok. Him [10:20 PM]: i sure felt like i was getting it from all sides tonight. i dont' know if you noticed where _____ got all huffy with me for not responding to something she said--it didn't seem to me to be something that obviously required a response. Me [10:21 PM]: no, i don't notice her, sorry. Him [10:21 PM]: i gave her a sort of semi-smartass response...i didn't feel like dealing with it. Him [10:24 PM]: well, i'm going to bed...night! Me [10:24 PM]: bye. posted by Jenny on 2/27/2003 10:27:00 PM |
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Mister Rogers died. That is very sad. I am going back to sleep now. posted by Jenny on 2/27/2003 06:47:00 AM |
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wTuesday, February 25, 2003 | |
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a few weeks ago 2 people i know got in a fight at work. i didn't see it, i tried not to hear about it, i just hoped everything would be ok. i think it lasted something like 3 weeks withhout them speaking to eachother. eventually last friday i mediated. one of them told me that the fact that her friend let it go on for 3 weeks without a simple apology really hurt her. eventhough i knew she was totally justified in feeling that waY, i tried to convince her that she could forgive without getting her exact apology. i thinK maybe now is too soon to be demanding an apology (even if it's just to myself), but now, i totally get her point. it pisses me off that even last night i knew that i would eventually apologize. i am sorry that something i said (intentional or otherwise) hurt his feelings. the right thing to do would be to say that. at the same time i know he'd just accept my apology and that'd be the end of it. that's not enough this time. he's a grown man, and i don't understand how he thinks he can go through life acting like everything is perpetrated on him. as his friend it hurts to watch him go through that all the time. right now i resent being made to feel like i'm doing something terrible to him. i'm sure in a few days of silence he'll decide it's ok to talk to me again like nothing happened. in 2-3 days i'll be even more pissed that he tried (and succeeded) to make me feel like an asshole for a few days. on a related note, i apologized to the person i wronged at work. i haven't heard back yet. i didn't expect to. i feel better than i thought i would feel. i'm glad my therapist thought apologizing sooner was better than later. now my mom just called and said she'll get me anything i want from mcdonald's for $4 or less. i think i'm loved afterall. posted by Jenny on 2/25/2003 12:03:00 PM |
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wMonday, February 24, 2003 | |
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i think someone just picked a fight with me. i was going to cut and paste the im, but aol quit on me. anyway, i im him to say hi, and joke about the fact that i sent 2 text messages this morning that were so long i had to use 2 messages. so 4 total. then he asks where i was, and i told him in the basement of the art building. he didn't seem to get it, i said "i have school on mondays." that probably should have been the first clue i wasn't in the greatest mood. so then he doesn't say anything for 6 minutes (timestamp strikes again), and finally says "we're figuring out how to handle fantasy baseball." my response? " whoopdee do" so then he asks why i'm so pissed that he's playing fantasy baseball, and i say "i'm not". so then i wait 13 minutes and ask "so that's it?" and then he instantly sends back this whole paragraph saying that i say i'm not pissed, but then i go on and on about being careful who his friends are "etc etc..." so i say "right, and you couldn't change the subject." his response was "i was mad about the "whoopde doo", alright?" all i said was "fine." then aol did the aforementioned quitting. whatthefuck? i'm not allowed to have bigger problems than motherfucking fantasy baseball? i'm about to get fired from my job because i fucked up big time on friday. i have a ton of things to do for school and i feel totally inadequate. my family is really on my case, and i don't know why, so i can't even help myself. if he thought i was "so pissed" about him playing, why bring it up in the first place? he's so fucking moody. i think i'll start holding it against him. he can take his fucking friends and live a wonderful life without me talking his ear off. i'm extremely sorry i forced him to volunteer to me that he wasn't that close to them, and they weren't such great friends and blah blah blah. i'm sorry i gave so much unsolicited advice, even though i was thanked every time. i don't think i'll make the same mistakes again, because clearly he's really fucking fragile. so if you're reading this, fuck you and the bitch you rode in on! posted by Jenny on 2/24/2003 07:53:00 PM |
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wThursday, February 20, 2003 | |
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shit, i forgot to register for class today. this morning, whenever. what did i do with my reg pin, anyways? what class should i take? one of the 2 i've already taken, or the one i haven't? posted by Jenny on 2/20/2003 05:35:00 PM |
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wSunday, February 09, 2003 | |
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i've been sleepy lately, so i decided to start taking my lexapro at night. i started on friday. today i felt less sleepy, so i'll keep it going for awhile and see if i like it better this way. also, i'm taking an ativan in the morning, sort of the tide me over, but also so i get seen taking a pill every morning. my mother is still doing that thing where, if i'm short with her she shouts "you forgot to take your pill today, didn't you!" posted by Jenny on 2/09/2003 06:58:00 PM |
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wTuesday, February 04, 2003 | |
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ever realize you're in a good nood but FIND NO REASON FOR IT? i was leaving work tonight, earlier than usual, and i decIDED TO drive up laurel canNYON BOULevard until i saw a 7-11 and get a slurpee. turns out that was a pretty long dRIVE. they haD BLue bluebERRY (redundant), coke, black cherry and mountaIN DEW, YUCK. i really wanted a bluE VANILLaA, then potTENTIALLY cherry. NOT COKE, IT HAs caffeine. anyway, i ended up gETTING black CHERRY AND coke. then i went back down to the freeway. driving towards the 405 the moon was an orangey colored sliver (like a fingernail clipping) low on the horizon. it looked really coOL. it lOOKED PRETTY COOL next to some OFFICE BUILDINGS TOO. most people probably don't like seeing tall office BUILDINGs on the horizon, i'm from a big city though ;) then i was driving through the sepulveda pass listening to GOOD MUSIC ON THE RADio (not a traffic report, as usual), and i got an ICE CREAM HEAdache going through the SEPULVEDA pass. that wAS COOL TOO. i'm thinking it's because i had 3 KINDS OF pasta and garlic BREAD FOR DINNER. who ever had my dinner knows me too well, and i don't even know the peoplE Who made dinners! :) off to enjoy a saratonin buzz... Me [9:27 PM]: i saw DAVID HASSELHOFF TONIGHT :) Her [9:27 PM]: LOL! And he was sober?? Me [9:28 PM]: also, shift key still broken Me [9:28 PM]: he was playing a hairdresser on a show Her [9:28 PM]: Yikes... how the mighty fall. ;) Her [9:28 PM]: A likely story about that shift key. Me [9:30 PM]: i lEFT A CHAT ROOM CAUSE IT HAPPENED ON MY FIRSst 2 lines Her [9:30 PM]: :/ How much is a new keyboard? Me [9:33 PM]: this one plus the MOUSe was $100 i haven't had them a year Me [9:33 PM]: i'm not GIVING IN Me [9:33 PM]: my sister's GETTING A NEW COMPUTER, maybe i can HAVE HERS Me [9:33 PM]: Jenny, you stubborn creature. LOL posted by Jenny on 2/04/2003 09:57:00 PM |
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